About: Ashley Raab
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- As it says in our blog info, we all (the contributors) come from a different background, with different experiences. It is a very true statement and it is one that I am proud to hold up. I am not a person who is good at describing themselves, especially when it comes to people that I may never meet, then again that may make it all easier. I was taught in middle school that to answer anything correctly and to it's fullest you have to ask the following: Who, Where, What, Why, and How. So, since I am not good at just typing my personality out, or rather my "biographical info" I'd rather answer these to my fullest =]. Who: Who is a very good question, partially because I have the answer and partially because I lost it and partially because we all are searching, yes? So pretty much you make pick 1/3 of it to love. I want to start off with how I was lost. Before I came to Christ, I honestly thought I knew who I was. I was still fun and smart and outgoing and a people person and silly and wise and "insightful" as someone once said, but still all those qualities can't be examplified. So I was lost. I put my identity into other people, such as the ones I dated and the people I hung around. That isn't something I recommend; because of that I went through various stages I am not very proud of. I put so much of who I am based off who others are that when the time came that it was over, I was lost and searching to find someone else. When I lost the person I had been dating who i thought surely I would marry (teen love is ridiculous) my world clashed. This time, I stayed alone though and it was difficult and I latched on to other people. I got a phone call one august morning however, and on it a crying voice told me that my first boyfriend, the one person who I actually legitimately loved had died. I dont bring this up for pity or for anyone to feel sorry because I don't need that (not to be rude) but I say i to try and tell everyone what place I was at, mind you the person i wanted to "marry" dumped me three weeks before. I felt like I was inside a cave as the floor was crumbling benethe me and I was just falling. It wasn't until a few months later that I met the people who would show me love and trust. When I first met these people they were utterly different, and I don't say that to be cliche, rather it was and is the truth. They showed me Jesus needless to say, and at the time the calling was strong and I followed what I needed. I became a Christian November 8th 2009. Fairly recently. Sure, I still have turmoil, but I am finding myself out more and more through Christ. Through Christ I am becoming more independed
